Reader tears, Outlander and Black Rebel Riders' MC...all drifting in a sea of hey look at me!
So, it has been a while since I have written a general update or post, and I feel really shitty about that. I feel like I have been swept out to sea and drowning in an ocean full of- hey look at me! Self-publishing is tiresome and I am exhausted. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do and I love the book community but social media is taking its toll on me and I don't like it. Too often I am getting caught up in what everyone is doing versus what I should be doing. Everyone wants to know, what will it take to get noticed? What can I do to sell more books? The answer is...I have no idea. I just want to write and read. God, do I love to read and play with the voices who stir in my mind, tirelessly.
If you love my books that is awesome and if you don't like them so much that is okay too. I don't love everything I read. This is mostly me rambling and clearing my head but I used to share my adventures in writing with you and I felt compelled to type this out. So where am I at now? I have taken the past week off and gotten swept up in the epicness that is the Outlander Series by Diana Gabaldon. Gah what a wonderful series. It has reminded me why I love to read and write so much. I love when I get those small reminders from time to time. There's just something so wonderful about falling in love over and over again with someone's prose. But the struggle is real- do I want to write or do I want to read? In order to write I must read- reading is a writer's superpower. I have never understood writers who say they hate to read.
So, now I am reading my Black Rebel Riders' MC Series again. I thought I would have book 6 written by now but life happens. I had forgotten to take care of me and let a lot of things go while drifting in the sea of hey look at me! I have to remind myself it's okay to take time away. It's okay to binge watch an entire season of a great show on Netflix every now and again. So that is what I have been doing while trying to promote two books. I have been putting off writing book 6 to be honest. I have let myself become paralyzed by fear...fear of disappointing those who enjoy the rebel series. And I can't write while feeling that way. But I am getting back to work on it. I'm remembering why I started writing this series to begin with, I wanted to write what I want to read and that is what I intend to do.
People have asked me how many books there will be in this series and I honestly don't know. Every time I start writing a book in this series I think it will be the last one but then my rebels raise their jars of moonshine and tell me-not yet, they still have more to say. Lastly, thank you for everything- for buying my books, reviewing my books, messaging me, shouting at me, shaking your fists at me, giving me the finger when I piss you off- ha ha. Thank you for sharing your tears of happiness and sorrow with me- I do drink them for breakfast.
Hope you have a great week- I have a date with Rebel Black...