It was so hard at first not to reach out to him, to send one reply, hell just to say anything at all. When I lost Brody it was like losing half of my heart.
Marla is right though I have held onto hope that someday fate would cross our paths again, and he would forgive me. I have typed him the same email a hundred times. The first line is always the same, with me answering the one question he always asks at the end of each message he sends.
Brody: How do you keep on going on with your life? Because I can't, I live in the space between yesterday and today. Darby, I live in my dreams with you.
Me: I hold onto hope that one day all the stars will align and you will become mine once more. That’s what has kept me going Brody, the promise of you….
But every time I hit delete, I can’t ever bring myself to do it. I should have deactivated my email long ago, but it is almost like a drug for me, my very own Brody fix.